This past week marked one year since I started writing publicly.
50 posts (2 missed from vacation).
Has it been worth it?
I have asked myself this question almost every week. Should I keep going?
Some weeks the writing process comes with ease. The idea comes, the words flow, people read, people comment, people share. Other weeks the idea is deep within a fog. I have to fight to find it, a blank page stares at me and I wonder if anyone will notice if I don’t post. I wonder if anyone will read it. I wonder if anyone will comment on it. I wonder if anyone will share it.
I wonder if what I am writing actually helps someone.
I wonder if I should keep going.
One day recently I was driving alone, a rarity. I had purposefully left the music off because I was struggling with the question, “Should I keep going?” I was talking to Jesus about it and asking him. I had not sensed a response so I just kept thinking and wondering. I was feeling overwhelmed with all of the things that I had going on and asking myself if I should give up something.
I was lost in thought, sitting at a traffic light when I sensed the Lord say, “Keep going.” I have never audibly heard the voice of God, but this was almost as if he were in the car with me.
Like I said, almost every week I ask myself if I should keep going. Every week I pray about it. And every week, God is so kind to cause someone to encourage me with a text, a message, a phone call, a share, a comment.
You have no idea how much your kind words mean to me.
Thank you. Truly.
My biggest hope with my writing is to encourage you to keep going in your pursuit of Christ, to keep looking for how He is showing up, to keep choosing obedience, to keep trusting even when He is quiet, to keep showing up even when you don’t feel like it, and to keep calling out to Him, knowing that He will answer in His perfect way. I want to pump you up for walking in surrender to God.
A surrendered life to Christ is the best life possible.
As 2021 comes to a close and I am reflecting back on the course of the year and dreaming about what lies ahead, my goal is to look more and more like Christ daily, to abide in Him, to have my refuge in Him and to love him and serve him with more passion and fervor than ever before.
I will keep going.
And I pray that you, friend, will keep going too.
Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually! (Ps 105:4).
A blessing for you as you move towards 2022 –
May God “give you wise minds and spirits attuned to his will, and so acquire a thorough understanding of the ways in which God works. I pray that you’ll live well for the Master, making him proud of you as you work hard in his orchard. As you learn more and more how God works, you will learn how to do your work. We pray that you’ll have the strength to stick it out over the long haul—not the grim strength of gritting your teeth but the glory-strength God gives. It is strength that endures the unendurable and spills over into joy, thanking the Father who makes us strong enough to take part in everything bright and beautiful that he has for us.” Colossians 1:9-12, The Message